I was coming up to my 37th birthday and I started to have what I like to call a “mid life major re-assessment”. It sounds much nicer than mid life crisis. I wasn’t in crisis, I was re-assessing.
I was going on 37. I hadn’t traveled the world. I hadn’t been raising kids. I was stunned to see all I had done with my life so far was pay a mortgage and work in a job I didn’t hate, but didn’t love either.
And it suddenly wasn’t enough. It felt empty. When I started that job, I swore I would only do it for 3 months while I started my creative business. Suddenly, I had less than 1 year to go to qualify for 10 years long service leave. And I had no idea where the time had gone.
It was a shock. And a reality check.
I had wanted to start my own business since 1998. Yes, that long. I dreamed of having my own line of rubber art stamps. Of teaching art journalling workshops. Of demo-ing at craft shows. Of having a book published. Oh yeah, it you’re gonna dream, dream big.
I’m not a ‘just jump in and have a go’ kind of girl. And so I read a lot of different business books and magazines. I watched small business shows on TV. I took days off work to attend seminars. I read self improvement books. I watched DVD’s and listened to CD’s on business. I did just about everything you can think of. For years.
And somehow, I still ended up right back where I started.
Still in that day job.
I had watched other people achieve what I wanted to achieve and they made it look so easy. That hurt. Watching other people achieve “my dream”. I was so frustrated. And I felt confused trying to work out how they had done it. What was I missing? I knew I was a smart girl. So why hadn’t I been able to do this??
I was at yet another seminar when a couple of little gems of wisdom really clicked. I could see a way that I could make this dream a reality. Finally!
So I decided at 37, it was now or never.
Things are much different from when I first tried to start all those years ago. So I’m starting over. Starting fresh. I’m going exploring on this adventure and seeing where it takes me.
Things may get a little bumpy and I might freak out a bit as I step outside my comfort zone. Sometimes it may all go a little bit sideways. But I want to sit in my rocking chair when I’m ninety and be able to say I gave it everything I had. I did my best. And hopefully, I will be able to say it took me on one of the most glorious adventures of my life. That I learned from amazing mentors. That I met talented, gifted artists. And that I made some treasured friends along the way too.
Wanna come along?
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I believe in good spoons and special cups.
I’m clumsy – I trip over my own shadow given half a chance.
I sing badly. Really badly. ‘Husband will ask me to stop singing’ badly. But one of my favourite quotes is – Don’t let lack of talent stop you.
I laugh easily. Or is it just that I’m easily amused?
I believe you should go after your dreams, no matter what age you are. Some people know what they want to be when they grow up when they are five. And some people spend their whole life trying to figure it out. I believe you are never too old to start.