Someone at my day job quit last week. No, it wasn’t me….. A couple of Etsy sales a month isn’t quite doing it for me just yet. But thanks for thinking it was me… hehehe.
He had been there for about 5 years. What really hit me is there was no fanfare. No drinks after work. No nice speeches. Not even a thank you. No, not even a thank you. I think I was the only one who said anything. And at the end of his last day, he just kind of slipped out the backdoor.
That made me sad. That 5 years of coming in every day. Of doing your best. Of going above and beyond your “official” job description. Of handling a hundred little things so they didn’t blow up into big things…. It all meant nothing. And I know that when I walk away, the same thing will happen to me. I always kind of knew it wouldn’t be a big deal when I left. But this was a little insight into my future. And it wasn’t very nice.
I want to run towards my business even more now.
Because I want to do something that matters.
And clearly, showing up 8 to 5 for someone else doesn’t.
You kind of think it counts for something. When you show up for someone every day. When you help make their business a success. But seeing this person just kind of wander off made me realize that it doesn’t. A lady I used to work for once told me –
“No matter how good you are, no-one is irreplaceable”.
And she’s right.
When I leave, someone else will just fill my place. And not long after, I’ll just be someone that worked there once.
For the longest time, I threw myself into work and the rest of my life got what was left. Because you have a responsibility to do your best at work, right? Because there is an obligation with work. But in the last year or so – helped along by some stupid stuff my boss has said to me – I’ve realized I had it all back to front. Work gets a bit. But I save the best for outside of work. For adoring my husband. For hanging out with my dog. For doing art. For going out into the world after hiding away for so long. And for working towards a business that will be so much more than working for someone else ever could be.
Because that’s what matters.
I’m having a mid life major re-assessment and racing towards the big 4-0 and I’ve only just figured this out. Kinda wishing I figured this out a lot, lot earlier…
I hope you read this and you see it too. That you know where you are most valued. That you see where your time and love and passion and spirit should be. And who you share that with.
That you see what really matters.