Damn you mid life crisis

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My ‘mid life major re-assessment’ really got to me this week.

People paint this adventure as a beautiful thing.

And it is.

I have grown so much as a person which I wasn’t expecting when I started.  I just wanted to get where I wanted to go.  To get to the finish line.  Forget ‘the journey is the destination’ – I just wanted it all to happen.  But along the way, it’s opened up a whole new world to me that I never knew existed.  I’ve learned so much (and have discovered I still have so much to learn).  I’ve also stumbled upon some amazing people along the way.  And a few of them I consider friends on this adventure.

But there is also a lot of stuff that messes with your head.

People who have successful businesses that start by happy accidents.  At the moment, I’m hating those stories.  They are really rubbing my fur the wrong way.  On the wrong day, those stories make you feel crappy and angry and make you say those terrible words “it’s not fair”.

People who don’t have to work so they have all day to work on their business. Being able to dive in to courses whole heartedly instead of having to steal moments here and there for weeks.  Reading all those blogs you would love to check in with every day but just don’t have the time for.  Having a whole day to do your art and experiment without a thought about time and schedules and priorities and to-do lists.

Just having the time to figure all this stuff out.

Waaah, it’s not fair.  Hmmm, classy.

I know it’s bad, but sometimes I really resent those people.  I’m sure they have their own challenges.  And there is probably lots of tears and hard work and setbacks just like me.  It just doesn’t seem like it.  Not today.  It feels like other people have seredipty on their side.  And that I’m pushing sh*t up hill.

Thank goodness for Danielle LaPorte’s Credo For Making It Happen.  It’s next to my computer screen at That Day Job.  I look at it when I need a courage boost.

I needed it today.

Coral.  xo

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    4 Responses to Damn you mid life crisis

    1. Renee says:

      Keep plugging away, you will get there and trully appreciate it when you do 🙂

      • Coral says:

        Thanks for the encouragement Renee. We all need to hear that – especially on the days where we aren’t feeling invincible.

        Love your site – will be spending part of my Sunday exploring 🙂

    2. Ruth says:

      Hi Coral,

      I feel you’re anguish! And I totally agree with you on the ‘happy accident’ success story – it drives me nuts too. It’s like, how is that possible? How is it that one day you were knitting a scarf for your mom and the next thing you knew orders were pouring in!! And a month later you’re hiring an assistant to keep up with the workload. Really?!

      Yeah, I’m pretty sure some details are being left out of those kind of stories just to make themselves sound super human and drive people like you and me mad 😉 But honestly, I believe that slow and steady is the only way to go. It truly is about the ‘journey’ and not the finish line… even if that’s not what you want to hear!

      And I personally think you’re doing an amazing job, Coral. I hope your ‘mid life major re-assessment’ is short lived!!

      Take care,
      Ruth xo

      • Coral says:

        “Really?!” – Hehe, love that. I think that too. We all know people who float through life, not just arty business, but every aspect of their life. And you wonder how they pull it off so effortlessly, but they just do. They are Pepe Le Pew, and we are the poor cat scrambling and scrambling. Le pant, le pant.

        I am a slow and steady kind of girl. I always say I am the tortoise not the hare. So wishing it would all happen overnight is against the grain and would probably just freak me out. And most of us would have no idea what to do if we were swamped with orders overnight. Although, it’s nice to dream isn’t it? But I believe perseverance and a little bit of stubborn thrown in for good measure will pay off in the end.

        Thank you for your beautiful words of encouragement, Ruth. We are all in this together – the support we give to each other is one of the kindest gifts I’ve discovered on this adventure.

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