My ‘mid life major re-assessment’ really got to me this week.
People paint this adventure as a beautiful thing.
And it is.
I have grown so much as a person which I wasn’t expecting when I started. I just wanted to get where I wanted to go. To get to the finish line. Forget ‘the journey is the destination’ – I just wanted it all to happen. But along the way, it’s opened up a whole new world to me that I never knew existed. I’ve learned so much (and have discovered I still have so much to learn). I’ve also stumbled upon some amazing people along the way. And a few of them I consider friends on this adventure.
But there is also a lot of stuff that messes with your head.
People who have successful businesses that start by happy accidents. At the moment, I’m hating those stories. They are really rubbing my fur the wrong way. On the wrong day, those stories make you feel crappy and angry and make you say those terrible words “it’s not fair”.
People who don’t have to work so they have all day to work on their business. Being able to dive in to courses whole heartedly instead of having to steal moments here and there for weeks. Reading all those blogs you would love to check in with every day but just don’t have the time for. Having a whole day to do your art and experiment without a thought about time and schedules and priorities and to-do lists.
Just having the time to figure all this stuff out.
Waaah, it’s not fair. Hmmm, classy.
I know it’s bad, but sometimes I really resent those people. I’m sure they have their own challenges. And there is probably lots of tears and hard work and setbacks just like me. It just doesn’t seem like it. Not today. It feels like other people have seredipty on their side. And that I’m pushing sh*t up hill.
Thank goodness for Danielle LaPorte’s Credo For Making It Happen. It’s next to my computer screen at That Day Job. I look at it when I need a courage boost.
I needed it today.