One of the companies I deal with in That Day Job used to have an amazing office girl. One of those people you love having to call. She knew what was going on. She called back when she said she would. And she was lovely – an absolute sweetheart. A few years ago, she left that job. She left because she was sick. And about a year after she left, she passed away.
I remember thinking – “Imagine passing away and all you had done was work for that business”.
Fast forward a few years and suddenly I was coming up to 10 years long service in a job that didn’t matter. For our clients, it mattered for a moment. But it didn’t matter if it was me or someone else doing it. And it didn’t matter to me. I didn’t feel like it was my true calling or that I was doing something important. It didn’t feel like it was what I was supposed to do. If I died tomorrow, I would feel like it was a wasted life having just done this day job for the past 10 years.
So a little over a year ago, I went after what had been in my heart for years. For a long time, I had pushed it away as a dream that would never happen. That I couldn’t have. Because I had tried before and failed. But it was always there, just under the surface.
A year after I started the adventure, I finally have my stamps in my hands. And I am wondering if it means something – dreaming of this for 14 years. That it’s more than jut a project that I am diving in to. That it’s what I am meant to do. That this is what I am meant to do with my life. That this is how I make my mark on the world. How I change the world. How I make my legacy.
Is it going to lead to something beyond what I can imagine at this moment? Is this going to be the start of a success story like those I read to inspire me now. Like those people I have followed all this time who make me believe this is possible. My courage builders.
I couldn’t have imagined this moment – this milestone – a year ago. It seemed so close yet so far away. I didn’t know what it would look like. Feel like. It feels different than thought it would. I thought it would be the Hallelujah chorus with beams of light and angels singing and a realization of who I am as person.
Instead, part of it feels like a delicious little secret because I haven’t told very many people about what I am doing. And part of it doesn’t feel as glorious as I thought it would. There have been lots of struggles along the way. And there was a lot of hours of hard work to get to this point. Knowing I am just beginning really, with so much more to go means it feels like a small part of the picture.
I am wondering what the next year will bring. As I open my Etsy store. As I write and share on my second blog. As I create art with my stamps. As I look into expanding the range. As I step out into the world with what I have started.
But whether I look back at where I started and how far I’ve come. Or if I look forward to what lays on the horizon. In this moment – I am grateful I started. That I didn’t wait another moment to do this.
My thought for you for today – Don’t Wait.