I had a tough week last week. I have sent the designs off to the manufacturer so am waiting for them to arrive in a few weeks. I have sent off a brief for my logo to a new designer which will be 4 weeks. So things are moving forward, but I was feeling like I was on pause. Waiting, waiting. I was still feeling upset and angry about the previous designer. My to -do list is still a mile long and growing. It’s all taking so much longer than I planned. And That Day Job was really getting to me as well. More so than usual. It all just piled up. To the point where I actually said to my husband…
I can see why people give up.
Now – I didn’t say I wanted to give up. I said I can see why people give up. I am hoping that subconscious choice of words means something. That even when things suck. When they aren’t going to plan. My mind still knows that giving up is not an option.
Usually I have my tantrum. I have my sulk. Then I get fierce and determined and things are back to normal within a couple of days. But this time it lasted a week. Maybe because I was feeling impatient. C’mon already. Maybe because I was looking in the rear view mirror too much instead of focusing on the next step forward. We’ve all been there, haven’t we? Raise of hands….
But this week, I’m back on track. I’ve got my fierce on. I’ve got lots of ideas I am excited about instead of feeling pressured. The inspiration is flowing. I am looking forward to the next big step which, in reality, is only a few weeks away.
I often wonder if other people can sense there is something big coming when they start their adventure. Like there is something just around the corner. They don’t know what it is, but they know it’s gonna be good. It’s kind of felt like that the whole way for me. Not just like this is something I want to have a go at. It feels important that I do this.
So – even when things don’t go to plan. When they take longer that I want them to. When my to do list feels too big. When it feels like things aren’t paying off. I remember why I started this adventure. And….
I don’t give up.
I hope if things are going sideways for you. If they are hard in this moment – that you have the courage to keep going. To remember why you started. And that you don’t give up.