I am feeling the one year pressure. I started this blog about a year ago. Tweets I’m reading at the moment are from other creative business women who started their adventure a year ago too.
Wild Sister Magazine is celebrating their 1 year birthday. They have a huge readership, a waiting list for contributors and have grown so much in such a small period of time.
Tara Gentile released an ebook into the world 1 year ago. Her tweet said she has sold over 2,500! Wow!
Why does their anniversary have to be the same as mine? [insert whiny voice here]
But I’m not celebrating. More like sitting here a little bewildered.
YES, I had the setback with my first designer. But it is more than that. I’ve been too scared to reach out too much. To step out. I’ve stopped asking people for interviews – not sure why since everyone I’ve asked said yes (even if some of them didn’t follow through). I haven’t done things I want to and should do like launch a newsletter (though I have started working on it now). I haven’t started a Facebook page (well, I started it but deleted it 24 hours later. I didn’t set it up right and I got frustrated trying to work it all out).
In ‘real life’, I am not a social butterfly, but I think I need to become one so I can build my business. So other arty hearts can learn along with me on this adventure, as well as discovering my products when I launch. Hiding in the corner is not going to help me do either of those things.
I have felt (and am still feeling) like I need to achieve everything within a tight time frame. People sell their business coaching programs on their success stories “From zero to millionaire in 6 months”. No pressure or expectations…. much. But I often wonder how many of their students walk away wondering why they couldn’t achieve the same results in the same time frame. If they achieve their dream or if they crawl back to their day job, crushed and defeated. Wondering what they did wrong.
And when it all happens so fast, does that mean it’s rushed?
Could it have been even better?
Did they enjoy the process?
Or did everything rush by so fast, they didn’t get to see anything. Did they learn and grow and discover along the way. Or did they miss all the fun?
Since I started, I’ve registered a domain name. Built my website. Written and blogged. Taken photos. Recorded interviews. Tweeted. Learned from online courses. Had a logo designed. Worked with designers and manufacturers. Had the courage to bounce back when it didn’t go to plan. Saved my pennies to make it all possible. Got up before the sun and went to bed late to fit it all in around That Day Job. Done victory dances. Had temper tantrums.
In other words – I haven’t just sat on my bum.
And along the way, I’ve grown and learned and discovered and changed and emerged and all that good stuff.
That’s kinda the point too, isn’t it?
Not just to get “there”. Not to do it as fast as possible. But to get all the juice out along the way. The good stuff. The really good stuff. The “I’m a better person for it” stuff.