It seems I have a case of the hiccups. I had my first one here. Now, I’ve got another one and I am not happy about it.
Things in one area are not going to plan. At all.
I will be sharing more here once I get it sorted out. But for now, let me say I am frustrated, disappointed and feeling like I have taken a big step backwards. Damn!
Of course, the first thing I did when I realized this was a hiccup was question myself. Was I not clear about what I wanted? Should I have seen the signs this was going to happen? What could I have done differently?
I was really upset when I realized what had happened. Yes, a few tears. A spill my heart out chat to my hubby. A bit of a sulk. That was stage 1.
Stage 2 was anger. I had done the right thing but I felt like I’d been taken advantage of. That I wasn’t getting what I was paying for. And I was paying damn good money. I was also a little angry at myself. For not realizing what was going on sooner. For letting the person I was hiring dictate how things were running. For letting this happen.
When it dawned on me and I finished giving myself a hard time, I started talking to myself. Telling myself the things I needed to hear.
The universe wants you to win – Danielle La Porte.
Sometimes we learn more from our failures than from our successes.
It’s not a failure unless you don’t learn something.
So I have had to take a few steps backwards for the moment. But sometimes you take a step backward to take a big leap forward. To move on to something better. To move in the right direction.