Having one of those “Damn Doubtful Days” today.
I am taking on a BIG PROJECT.
Actually, not just one but two.
Can I do this? Can I pull this off?
I also want it yesterday. I am one of the most impatient people on the planet, seriously.
I have so much to do. So much to learn. I want to develop a different style to my art, do I need to do that first? Which product do I launch first – copies of my artwork or designs/products to use in the artwork? Do I launch my product and it’s related blog before I share with everyone here?
Then I change the way I am talking to myself – it’s not helping, it’s just freaking me out. I start saying the things to myself I need to hear. The things I would say to my best friend if she needed some encouragement and reassurance.
Since I decided to take on this project, things have come along just when I needed them.
I was thinking of starting a blog and looked at a course I was interested in by one of the best in the industry – Yaro Starak. The course became available and I got it at a discount.
Then came Kelly Rae Roberts e-course just as I had been looking at it – for the millionth time. I got the course for the price of just the e-book – but with all the support, access to Kelly and other paticipants that you get with doing the actual course. Plus I paid when the Aussie dollar was high, so it was like I got a discount for that too!
I have recently been looking at some creative business coaching, but was nervous about the prices as well as what I would get out of it. If it was right for me, if I should be doing it now. One of the girls I follow on Twitter – Brand & Bloom issued a limited offer – 1 month coaching for $75. Even part of what she is offering is usually over $200. I have signed up with her and am nervously looking forward to our first discussions and where this could lead.
When you make a decision that is what you are meant to do – the universe conspires to help you.
I have no doubt there will be some challenges along the way on this adventure. And I have no doubt I will have more Damn Doubtful Days. But the universe seems to be leading me to the people I need to know, just when I need to. Coming when I need it, but before I am comfortable with the idea. These opportunities are pushing me outside my comfort zone. Each opportunity has had a limited time attached to it. A limited offer, a deadline. That has been enough to push me beyond the discomfort of not knowing if I am ready or if it’s what I need right now. Each chance has been now or never. Now or 6 months from now.
And I don’t want to wait.
I don’t want to give up. I don’t want to take it slow. I don’t want to have another birthday and still be wishing I had the life I see other artists have. I don’t want to get to 38, 39 or 40 and be in the exact same place I am today. Or worse, going backwards.
What worked for me today to get past my doubtful day?
Where will you be a year from now if you give it everything you’ve got?
Where will you be if you don’t?